One who gains strength by overcoming obstacles possesses the only strength which can overcome adversity. said Albert Schweitzer
People stopped caring a long time ago. People always want to say that they had it worse than you, how do they know it was worse than yours. Why can't people put their lives on hold for a few minutes to help someone else? People are so greedy by wanting all the attention, that they will walk all over you and not even blink an eye.
This is why the world will end. People are going to kill each other with hate, negativity, lies, and greed. They say the world is going to end in 2012, they get their information from a calendar of all things. I think the world will go on but I think somewhere around 2030 or 2040 people will turn on each other with mass riots driven by hate, greed, negativity, and lies. I try not to worry about the end, instead I like to focus on the present. Because I can control things here in the present. I can't change what happened in the past, and I can't predict the future, but as long as I have a breath in my body I have a say in what happens in the present, that being said, I'm going to enjoy the rest of life however long I have left on my terms.
I refuse to be torn down, pushed aside, or controlled by someone else's rules, beliefs, thoughts, or wishes. I have my own brain, heart, and soul. I'm sick and tired of fearing what people think of me. That brings me to my next point. Why do people fear what they don't understand? Why do people fear what people think of them? We were all born with our own brains so wake up people and think for yourself. Think about this we were all born alone and we will die alone, what we do in the meantime is up to us. So live for yourself and not others. The people of the world have taken peer pressure to a whole new level. Peer pressure is so big and powerful that I think it is really the world president. I call him or it President Fear! Because we all live in fear. Scared to go to school because you are wearing hammie down clothes from goodwill or scared to read your term paper out loud in class because you have a studder problem. I lived in fear for 31 years because I was different, I was shy and scared to speak afraid of what people around me would think of me inside their minds. I always feared what they thought of me to themselves.
I say it's time to stand up and speak up, rise up and conquer your fears time to overcome the dark cloud that has been raining on your life. You can get your life back. Fear is a powerful thing but there's something else far more powerful and that's you! But here's the kicker, It all starts with a choice. You either choose to live in fear or you choose to overcome it. It's not easy, It's not fun and it's no picnic, it's life and we only get one shot at this life. I choose to overcome. So I've overcome my fears, but it wasn't easy let me take you on a tour of my brain for the last five years. There was death, there was pain. I lost my father to a man with a gun, I lost my Grandmother Monroe to a bad heart and a sorry hospital. I quit a good job I had for three and a half years because I feared it was going under, got another good job only to lose it to a Massive Panic Attack (that caused me to blackout), and then I was jobless for five months. I lost my home and became homeless, sleeping in my car for two weeks, I've lost four good friends and I've been single for the last seven years. Are you depressed yet? Reading all of that would make anybody sad. So tell me how does one overcome such sadness and heartache? Do you think it's God or maybe it's drugs, how about alcohol? Nope, it's none of the above. Think about this: "I understand that it's hard for everyone, but one cannot give in to emotions... we'll have to draw lessons from the current crisis and now we'll have to work on overcoming it." said Boris Yeltsin
I'm not going to sit here and tell you what your problems are, I'm no doctor. I'm just a guy that wants to help. I'll tell you what helped me, It was my Grandma Horne she's been dead for the last 27 years so it's not like I asked her for advice and she gave it to me, no. I sat down one day by myself and I asked myself what kind of man would she want me to be? Then I cried, cried so hard. It felt good to cry because I hadn't cried one tear in 27 years for nobody. People used to say I was cold and heartless because I didn't cry at funerals. After all that I have overcome in the last five years, there still remains one fear. It is my biggest fear and that fear is, I fear that when I die I will not spend eternity with my Grandma Horne. If you are still confused my Grandma Horne was my life. When she died 27 years ago all the happiness in my body died with her on that hospital bed. Still to this day, that is why it's so hard for me to find happiness, I know it's possible and it's out there I just haven't found it yet.
So happiness is hard to find and life can be challenging sometimes, love can kick our asses like nobody's business. But that's no reason to fear it or hate it. Take what this life gives and make the best of it. We all come into this world crying and everyone around us is smiling, live your life to the point that when you die, you are the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.
So I'm choosing to overcome my fears and live my life to the standards I choose, not the standards of people around me. I choose to use my brain and my heart to make decisions to best suit my life.
What do you choose to do with your life?
JLH
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