Hello, Black Void that is my audience.
I just love talking to myself so here I go again haha Things are slowly getting better for me. I was really hard on myself (I always have been) but for the last six years, I've been really hard on myself. I finally had to realize not everything is my fault. I'm not perfect by no means but I didn't bring all this drama on me all by myself. So I sat down and started reading more and started watching more of my favorite motivational speaker... Prince Ea. If you've never watched his videos I very much recommend it.
They have really made me rethink a lot of things and how to approach things in life. I would gladly say that right now in my life he is my idol/mentor. Look him up if you want. Anyway, I just got home and said I'm going to write a little bit, even though nobody reads them. But I know in my heart I wrote it down and when I'm dead and gone and my friends and family finally start to look at my page they then will see. And I hope at that time it brings them so much comfort that I was getting better and by the time I'm gone ill feel like my life meant something if not to anyone else but to me. For the last four years of my life, I was not a happy man.
The last time I was really happy was what I'm going to call the Ara period of my life. Back then things weren't always great but I was happy. But I'm going to make a new promise to myself I will never let myself be as unhappy again as I was the last four years or so. Well guess I'm done talking to myself so I'm going to go read a little and relax and let the happiness come to me.
JLH.
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